Sunday, April 29, 2007

Became one night Justin

This is my first time to go to the gay bar.

22:34, last night, I received the call from my senior,Mikey. She wanted me to hang out with her and celebrated for the admission of her final paper with two of her gay friends, Myles and Bjork. Actually, I've never been to gay bar since I came to Taipei for university, because not only there was no invitation from others but also I had no more money and interests in that. However, what happened there at last night really astonished me.

It is a mix club called 'Cafe Fresh' and sited at JinShan S. Rd.. It is based from the 2ed floor to the 4th which is a loft. There is a pretty, red ticket window at the end of the 1st floor stair, and the man inside stamped a pot leaf on our handback.(of cause, Mikey paid the tickets) After entering the music-shrieking gate, we ran after with Myles listening to his introduction like students sitting in class. The 2ed floor is lounge bar although it seemed that the seat you could take was on other's laps; the 3rd floor is set with dancing pool where the best place for men to hunt their mate; and the loft is the only place with a cute lamping garden and without the awful-volume music in this building.


By the way, before seeing me, the original mission of Myles was to sell Bjork out. Then, I caught up with them on the street. Myles said that tonight the spotlight belonged to us must focus on this cute guy. Hahaa, he said it.

After turning around, we came back to the 2ed floor for beer, because Mikey and I didn't like the boring lime water, Perrier. While I was waiting for my beer, I noticed that one old foreigner in the corner was looking at me. I smiled him and said 'how's it going.' He responded 'nice smile...' We talked for a while until I got beer. Back to Mikey, I found the adorable expression from Myles. He told me that he had been mouth-watering for the man since he saw him, and waited for the very chance to know him. The only one thing I could say was everyone here with various flavor.

Anyway, I finished my beer and invited Mikey to dancing pool. Following the music, I swung my ass, nodded my head with the rhythm, and tried to lead awkward Mikey. She got open-eyed and told me 'Justin, you are really beautiful, and talented for dancing. You must keep practicing without saying!' At that time, I really thought of that I became Justin daning in the Babylon.
Songs by songs, I enjoyed in my dance even though lots people around and danced with some of them. Nevertheless, despite a gay bar here, I danced with two special women who come from South Africa, but one is Hong Kongnese;both of them here for business, and their company is nearby. Although they seemed above 30, they were good at dancing, and their gesture and energy really made me amazing.

While tired, I went forward to Mikey, and came to the loft with them. There I met some guys. one is Mark, he is a businessman coming from holland and relative with the out-spring convenient store, HiLife. He's goodlooking, humorous, and repetitively said busy! busy! Besides, he had a very pretty matchbox from the famous gym, AForMe. but who knows a busy businessman went to Aforme for what. Another one who was clinging to Mark is Crag. He's a Australia Artist, and got drunk so that it was hard for me to figure out what he said. However, I still got something, such as his exhibition is held at the art gallery in TNUA. But to be a student in TNUA, I've never heard that there is a place called 'art gallery' in my school. Both Mikey and I agreed that he was strongly drunk.

There came another Mark, who is also a businessman coming from South Africa. After the women I danced with appeared, I found Mark is in special relationship with both of them. One of the women born in hong Kong called Dilys, is dating with Mark now. Another whose name is a hard-remembered African ( the first letter I absolutely ensure is A ), was Mark's ex-girlfriend. Additionally, the interesting thing is when Dilys whispered their relationship to me, she used Chinese for fear that woman A could listened.

About 2:00, the loft was close, and for us it was about to leave. Therefore, Myles felt anxious about his mission. Bjork still got along with us. no one came forward to catch him, so we decided to go downstair and to stay 3rd floor for while seeing if any interesting thing would happen. Finally, Myles gave it up. He thought nothing knocked on this dull wood. Hahaa, he seemed like the pander of us, didn't he? Worst of all, he changed his subject to me... well, what he did really made me fear and Mikey damnly voted on him. Ooh~ I never though about picking up any man here. The reason I came is to celebrate with Mikey and to shoot the saying 'gay bar' a glance.

Minutes past, Myles came back us with the South-Africa Mark, and keenly recommended me to him. A Black appeared suddenly and told me that his is mine! I answered, 'don't worry, I'm not interesting. ' Then, while finishing Myles recommendation, Mark turned to me and said' You are so young and beautiful, and some day you will meet another beautiful guy. But can you leave your number? ' Yes, I left the wrong number for him because I'm not a teasing virgin asshole bitch. According to his words, I realized that he is Bi and he is specifically not my type. Moreover, I don't want to be put into the affair among him and his women.

Well, that's what I experience at my 1st time to go to the gay bar and realize why Mikey call me Justin. I find that I really have the characteristics of Justin belonged to " Queer as Folk." But I'm still waiting for the day Brian appear. In addiction, 'Fresh' is not 'Babylon.' After becoming one night Justin, I should come back and face my real life.

Friday, April 27, 2007

ooh~ it touches me so much




I`m so envious about their friendship.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

song of Jus



this is the specific song for Justin at the night he met Brian.

Let's Queer as Folk!!

期中心聲

天壓 讓我選主修老師吧
劉思量你不要我沒關係 幹嘛還口口聲聲說我的想法有趣
但你知道你已是萬中之選??
你不覺得每次論文課時可以一邊跟學生酗咖啡嗑煙還有人耍白癡給你看已經是人間幸福 還挑屁壓

實在話 其他的我怎麼挑
一個活在中世紀 一個苦練古墓派 一個喝過洋墨卻連英文都講不好
我可不想成為莎士比亞的騎士
也不想天天看到楊過小龍女搞那些飛天的把戲
更不會受到愛和華牌馬鈴薯的誘惑

畢業論文ㄋㄟ
這麼激盪人心又令人害怕受傷的大學終點

握著手中僅存籌碼 正想放手一搏
卻發現
逛遍第五大道所有櫥窗
找不到適合的餞別禮物

我到底該怎麼辦壓

Sunday, April 22, 2007

AW's pop life

Andy Warhol說:一但你不再想要某件東西,你便會得到它。

用在人身上也是??

Thursday, April 19, 2007

到底在想什麼

前天聽到室友J對室友X說
〝他喜歡把自己搞得很晚才睡來博取客戶的同情...〞
雖然只是一句玩笑話,聽在心裡卻很難過
那種一到晚上思緒越來越清楚,搞得自己不想入眠
卻又無法有效率工作的那種心情
不斷地反芻內在,非搾乾思緒不可只圖一個包庇自己的藉口
然後才可以繼續面對明天的無奈
J永遠無法理解

晚上,上口說課,上課的又是 Ben
"Leslie, you did a good job."
誇我誇得這麼勤,老在我旁邊晃來晃去
還說自己只看queer eyes fot staight guys
這樣的隱喻也太明顯
雖然他脾氣好又老愛對著我笑,但我要的是Brian
而不是成為Queer as Folk裡面的Mikey
好不容易覺得自己像知所好惡又很有才華的Justin說


這也是第一次在口說班看到那個男孩的晚上
原本還以為他不是上同一天
下課10分鐘
頭一次離他這麼近,只要一步就會撞上的距離
而我 正在其樓下跳著不有一搭沒一搭的踢躂舞步
直覺告訴我說他應該是北市師或國北師之類的學生 還參加籃球隊
但他卻分到感覺程度比較好的那班
突然有點沮喪
真想認識他


不知道自己還在期待些什麼,真可笑

放棄

很難過,覺得自己很沒用。原本決定要開始用英文寫網誌的,卻因為老是辭不達意,終究對自己妥協了...