一首最近發現的歌
曾經在葉小黑的無名上聽到
印象很深，直到這兩天在電視上聽到才知道原來有個很特別的團叫做"Tizzy Bac"
很喜歡女主唱的音色，豪邁地表達她所要的情緒，對我來說，也許這就是一種勇敢吧！

If I were dead...

If I were dead, I don't worry about my paper anymore.
If I were dead, I can stop the pressure to be a good boy in parents' eyes.
If I were dead, I wouldn't get anxious about what I do is practical or not.
If I were dead, nothing could be achieve at all.
Pathetically, I 'm still alive,
but I feel psychological empty and physical laziness.

Am I going to be an odd guy?

After dining with some of my senior high school classmates, I found myself really worse to participate in their talking even if I miss them so much. Does it reflect that I'm going to get my life separated from theirs? The main issue is that I can't find any common topic for talking except those happened during the past senior school time or the other classmates of ours. Although I try to avoid judging this situation which is most agreed to be sensible, I still feel confused why I become so incompatible. If it's getting hard to find something fresh for talking, it makes the gathering duller than just staying home, doesn't it?

Are we freak??

Recently, I had little confused about this question. Maybe it makes a great deal with some of my colleague, who comes from Taikung University and works at the same place with me, the consultant center. As the same university identification, he and I are totally different, no mater it reflects on the way we think, the economic perspectives we treat, or... the friends we made. Personally, I have to admit that I might have some good impression on him so that I pay attention. However, the question " why TNUA makes her students freak?? " or " Why her students make TNUA freak?? " really cause me curious.

Basically, every students in TNUA must graduated from senior high schools or at least the similar society, but why they are getting far away with other 'normal' universities' students. Although we have the same ways for fun, such as singing in KTV, hanging out and shopping on streets, holding freshmen camp.....even looking for the one to be our Mr. or Miss right ( well, it is fact that the one we look for almost gay in TNUA, ) it seems to be a huge space between us and other universities. People might think that artists or some who work at art must have unnatural characteristics so that they become those people, but in fact, artists live in the exact world as them, make alive with the same way.

After discussing with Mikey and Suzanne, I confirmed my opinion again. Yes, we are freak!! The reason that makes us abnormal is not only the education and training we received but the characteristics we gifted or we exploited, so it distinguish us from other "normal" people. What mentioned above make us focus on the inner or spiritual conception instead of those outer or practical. However, the inner side we used to dig is tough to face for most people themselves, and have pretended very carefully. Moreover, done more on the inner side is related to be weak at social production and earning live so that the society seems not allowed to contain too many artists...

Besides, if one day, anywhere were full of artists or people like us, how's the world getting to be?? Are most people becoming freak?? Anyway, I'm very glad and proud of being a freak.

Please come someone cheer me up!!

"Weird!! It's tough for me to weep though I'm in a deep sorrow" I wrote it down on my msn display name couple days ago. Last weekend were the worst time I've ever passed. In the Fri. morning, when getting the Toefl score on the official web, I knew everything went wrong. ( Do me a favor; never ask me how it is.) Does it mean that I lose my hope to go abroad? However, I deserved it. It truly proves the phrase "no pain, no gain." and makes me realize that my English is still not good enough.

On Sun. we those staff working on the students consultant center got together to Jiou-Fan for fun, but it was really rainy and crowd there. Lingering less than 3 hrs, we transfered to the temple street in Ji-Lon just because of some guys' suggestion. Attention! If someone would like to go to that street, please do not go over before the sunsets, or he must fuck himself boredly to death just like us, coming back Guandu very early. Anyway, the tight and bad schedule made me felt worse.

My friend, Shiau-Li told me that the best period to fall in love are in December and during summer vacation. I admitted that recently I was in my oestrus, and listed a ideal mate list inTNUA. Unfortunately, they were neither gay, nor available. Worst of all, I decided to hold a homo big party on campus which would keep one week to be my last creation work by these 4 years hoping
it's scope could reach the form of Public Art.

Nevertheless, it is sarcastic that the host have kept single for 22 years, isn't it??

睡不著...
王菲唱的〝色盲〞一遍又一遍地播著